break the chains

hi ya peeps!  No doubt, I haven't been on my A-game when it comes to this stuff (didn't see that one coming....ha).

As you know, school started back a week ago.  Since I participated in both summer sessions (I know, I know...I don't know why I did that either), I haven't exactly had a vacation from school since August of 2012!  craziness.  Along with getting a job this summer, thanks to The Pit (yall come get some BBQ!), I haven't had much time to breathe between classes, work, and commuting back and forth from home for various occasions.  Needless to say, my faith journey had been paused for a little too long.

This time last year I was burning with that Christian "high" from being in Africa and visiting with my friend Rachel down in Largo, Florida.  Last summer was completely jam packed with experiences that boosted my faith journey more than any other trips I had ever been on...especially Africa.

Why is it so easy to fall off of that Christian "high"?

Society is nothing but a vacuum.  A pure moral and value sucker.  You truly have to be on your A-game every moment of everyday if you want to stay on that "high", but we all know how impossible that is.

I've given into society way too much recently.  I'm tired of it.  Don't get me wrong, it's not like I'm going out and doing drugs and getting drunk non-stop.  It's not that at all.  It's just the little things: having more negative thoughts than positive thoughts towards certain things, complaining too much, not sharing God's word at all, not having faith based conversations with friends.

It's time for a change - for me to get back to 'normal'.

I've never really been this far away from my faith before.  I'm not doubting or anything, it's just not the first thing that I base judgements off of like it used to be, ya know?

I want to read my Bible more.
I want to have more conversations with friends.
I want to pray more.
I want to pray before every meal.
I want to be able to go to bible study on a regular basis (hopefully work will allow it).
I want to be held accountable for these things.
I want to shine God's light in everything I do.
I want people to see Him through me...like people said they used to.

While I pray for all of you, I hope that you will pray for me in return.  We all have struggles like these, it's human.  That's why it's so easy to get like this.  But it's time to break these chains and walk on as disciples, people!  Here we go!

I'll leave you with this verse from my reading tonight:

"For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do."
Ephesians 2:10

-E